I was reading Escape From Freedom by Erich Fromm today and came across a lovely passage that I wanted to share with you all. I'll let you interpret it as you wish.
" 'I knew that we counted little in comparison with the universe, I knew that we were nothing; but to be so immeasurably nothing seems in some way both to overwhelm and at the same time to reassure. Those figures, those dimensions beyond the range of human thought, are utterly overpowering. Is there anything whatsoever to which we can cling? Amid that chaos of illusions into which we are cast headlong, there is one thing that stands out as true, and that is - love. All the rest is nothingness, an empty void. We peer down into a huge dark abyss. And we are afraid.' "
He quotes that passage from Julian Green's Personal Record and goes to say, "However, this feeling of individual isolation and powerlessness as it has been expressed by these writers and as it is felt by many so-called neurotic people, is nothing the average normal person is aware of." How true this is. Thinking about my own thoughts and feelings and those of others with an ED we do think like that. Our mind is muddled with those types of thoughts everyday.
I think my favorite quote from the whole passage comes a few lines later:
"But whistling in the dark does not bring light. Aloneness, fear, and bewilderment remain; people cannot stand it forever."