On the plus side! I got Ellen as a little today :D I'm so excited about that!! I've wanted her to be my little in the theatre fraternity since I met her working on The Foreigner. I was actually really nervous that she wouldn't end up being my little. That she wouldn't even want me to be her big. But no worries! She is now :)
Down side: I will still have to eat tomorrow... Normally I would just say that eating this much today means fasting tomorrow. But having people constantly on your back about eating makes that just about impossible. Unless I want Ellen to have a fasting day as well which I am definitely not okay with. So somehow I need to get away with eating small amounts of really low calorie foods. However, she doesn't just care about me eating. She cares what I am eating and how much I am eating. So it makes it difficult to get away with anything. I just wish people made it easier for me. Can't they see I just need to lose this awful fat?? I weight entirely too much and need to keep losing.
Anyway, this entry is getting a bit long so I'll stop it here and update again soon.