I don't know what's going on in my mind. I was thinking of fasting today, or at least keeping my eating to an absolute minimum after yesterday. And I did well until around 5. I ate half of a brownie. Then my mom ordered Dominoe's pizza for dinner and I had 3 slices of cheese pizza. Then later on I had a 100 calorie ice cream bar. And then some gummi worms. The weirdest part? I don't really feel guilty about it...I feel just like I did before this whole anorexia thing started. But I'm also super nervous about what's going to happen when I step on the scale tomorrow.
I think I just need to take a break for a few days and figure out what's going on in my head. I think it has a lot to do with me preparing to go back up to college on Monday, it's messing with my head.
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