Every time I have thoughts of going back to my old habits, something makes me think "maybe tomorrow." Usually it's because I am guilted into eating something. At my new nanny job, the woman I work for makes us both lunch. So getting out of lunch is basically impossible. Although she goes back to work next week and I should be on my own. Meaning I will be drinking tea for lunch. And lately my family has been eating dinner together every night and trying to get out of it yesterday didn't work. Sooo I need to do some hardcore trying this time to escape meals. We'll see how it goes.
My mom and I have started going for a walk every evening so that should help shed a little weight. Although that's not enough so I'm starting to do some pool exercises as well. Honestly I just need to lose weight anyway possible. I can just feel the fat hanging from my body and it makes me sick. I wish I could just peel it all off.
I just finished reading a book called Second Start to the Right. It's about an anorexic 14-year-old. She's 5 years younger than me but I find myself thinking very similar thoughts and it was an interesting read. Also an easy read, I read it in a day. I have another book on hold at the library about anorexia. It's called Wasted. I'm interested in reading that as well.
I'll keep you posted on everything that's going on :D I hope to be on here more often.