I'm telling my mom about my cutting tomorrow. Hopefully that is...
I met with Nancy a few days before coming home for summer (I came home today and met with Nancy about three days ago) to talk to her about how to tell my parents. They are going to find out eventually. With the amount of scars I have and the amount of times we go on the boat over the summer. Plus I think they need to know.
Nancy told me she wants me to see a counselor while I'm home for the summer and she strongly recommended medication for anxiety/depression. I'm absolutely terrified to tell my mom... I have it written out in a letter and will either read it to her or just hand it to her tomorrow depending on how I feel. I'll probably end up handing it to her. Either way is going to result in extremely high levels of anxiety that I'm not sure I could handle... I'm nervous I won't tell her at all.
Here's what I have written as of now:
I think this is the most difficult thing I have ever and will ever try to write. It could also be the most important. I had to write it down because I wanted to be sure I included everything which I wouldn't have been able to do just talking to you.
I started going to the counseling center at school and talking to Nancy. I've been having a lot of issues with anxiety and feelings of depression. But what really prompted my decision to go was something different. I've been cutting myself.
This is definitely not something I'm proud of and it's extremely difficult to tell you. I don't want you to be upset or disappointed. And, most importantly, I don't want you to blame yourself! I really want to move past this and get better. Nancy believes I should see a counselor while I'm home for the summer until I go to Ohio and then again when I come back. She also strongly recommended medication for anxiety/depression. I hope you'll support me in trying to recover and will help me find someone to go to.
I love you so much and need your help/support."
Hopefully I'll be able to give this to her tomorrow... I really do need the help and want her support. We'll see how tomorrow goes.
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