I have not weighed myself in two days and it's driving me insane!! But I'm in Minnesota at my Aunt/Grandparent's house and I have no idea where to find a scale... On Saturday I'll be home and there will be a scale. But then Sunday I will have my scale back and all will be well :D I can't wait.
I just want to lose. I keep going back and forth between wanting recovery and wanting to be thin again. And right now I just want to be thin. My cousin, 17 year old boy, is about 6'0" and weighs 135lbs. I am 5'8" and fluctuate between 130 and 133. Not okay with me. I need to lose a lot more than I thought. I was aiming for 125 but I just need to get to 120. Ideally I'd love to be 115 but we'll see. I just need to get there! Somehow. Whatever it takes.
I have a guy friend who is taller than me by quite a bit, and is lighter than me by quite a bit. And he's a year older than me. I give him quite a lot of shit for being so skinny, because guys tend to want to be a bit buffer, but really, I only do it because I can't stand the fact he's so thin and I'm so fat.
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