I have my next appointment with Nancy tomorrow.  Oh goodness...  I wonder if she is going to ask me if I've cut myself since I talked with her.  The honest answer would yes.  Or is she just going to assume/hope I'll let her know if I've cut.  That's not going to happen.  I'm certainly not going to just volunteer that information if she doesn't ask.  But if she asks I'll feel obligated to answer honestly.  Otherwise I'm wasting both of our times.  I can't lie to her.  If telling her the truth doesn't work out for me, I can always stop going.  No one is forcing me.

Speaking of my cuts.  The one I did about two and half weeks ago is itching so much!!!  I know it's because it's healing but I want it to stop!!  Between the itch in that one and the pain in the one on my hip it's driving me crazy.  There's no way these aren't leaving really noticeable scars.  I already have a bunch of scars from cutting and those weren't nearly as deep as these new ones.  Eventually my parents are going to find out.  We go on the boat all the time when I'm home and I can't wear coverups forever.  Maybe I can.  Anyway I'm not thinking about that right now!!  Self Reminder: One step at a time! Don't think too far ahead.  Remember what Nancy said "How do you eat an elephant?  One bite at a time"  You can do this.


Well I'm going to do some more crocheting and then go to bed.  Gym at 8:45am tomorrow :D